ngauba jd amu pc...no!!!!!!!!...hehe....kung walay internet...it's like wala koy life...heheh...pero may nalang sad naguba amu pc kay para maka tu on nako..whahah...pero kung pa pili on ko if kung pc or tv ang maguba...pc nga maguba nalang akong pili on...tv is my life...heheh...naa man sad internet cafes so pwede rako ag internet didto dibah?...bsin maka tabang mo..amo cpu kay dili na mu on..pero mag tingog gihapon siya sa sud...mao rana prob sa amu pc...help!!!!...

6/22/2007 10:30:00 AM

uhmm..gahapon ni nahitabo sa akong kinabuhi..heheh...


uhmm..yesterday..we were wearing our school uniforms na which i am thankful because i miss wearing my school uniform and i'm also tired wearing civilian clothes. I have been thinking aout something and I'm gald that i realized what i should do (don't ask nalang basta mao nana..hehe). Pero I'm happy sad na wala ko nagpadala sa akong gi bati--well..hapit unta..hehehe...kay maboang niya ko..hahah...Yesterday was ok..i had my lunch almost 2 PM na..gutom na kaau na na time..hehe...akong mga alaga sa akong tiyan nag chabaw na..hahaha....then balik ko class inig 2:30..then break nasad 3:30-5:30...nalingaw nasad ko sa amung BA 101 na class..nalingaw ko kay naa nako katabi..heheh...lingaw man jd amung BA na subject kay daghan kau ko classmates na mga bugoy na lalaki..hehe...that's all..heheh...
thanks for reding...cheers!

6/19/2007 06:54:00 PM

i went to ayala yesterday...then nasapot ko kay daghan kaayo taw ang ayala...then i went to national bookstore...perti jd ang taw...daghan man ko gi huna2 ato na day..anyways..nag pili2 ko ug mga notebook then kanang murag ukay-ukay pag butang ang mga notebook...then i have my shoulder bag with me na mag cge ug kahulog...not nga hulog jd na hulog...kanang murag mag cge katang tang bah...then nag bit2 pako ug plastic bag kay didto ko sa metro gikan...then nag kuha nako sa akong paliton...akong gi bit2 kay plastic cover, yellow pad ug bond paper...then mao na..nag pili nako ug notebook...nangahug bitaw na ang noteboook then naay gurl (mga in her 30's na..) ga tanaw ra bitaw na siya!!!! lagota jd nako oi!! as in duol rako niya...as in ga tanaw ra jd siya...
mu ingon na ta ko na "tabangi sad ko oi"...pero ala nalang...argh!! gi samot jd ko niya kasapot ato na day...

RANTS and PRAISES

6/18/2007 10:53:00 PM

I wrote this article in my senior year. This was published in our school magazine (E-Mag or Eastern Magazine). This is about my father.

I really don’t have a memory of my father when I was a child because my parents got separated when I was just three years old. In the thirteen years of my life, I really did not feel the love of my father, which is difficult. Whenever there is a form in school to be filled up and are required to write our father’s names, on my paper, all I do is just leave the space behind. Because my father’s bloodline is known all over the place, my mother would not let me acknowledge him. She was afraid that I might be abducted. Sometimes, I tend to get jealous whenever I see daughters with their fathers especially if they are close. I also don’t have any siblings, which makes life a bore. I also envy those girls who have their older brothers to watch over them, especially when it comes to guys, you know if that guy is going to fool me, he can just kick that guy’s butt and ta-da…he’s doomed! During my freshmen year in high school, my school accounts were too big to handle for my mom so we decided to contact my father but we couldn’t reach him. Mother was working in a company, which repairs lamps. How fortunate of me to have father’s brother as a customer once at mom’s workplace, so he gave her the address where we could talk to my father. So I wrote a letter to my father saying that I needed his support and that mom couldn’t raise me alone because her salary is not enough for the two of us especially now that I’m studying in a private school. I remembered including in that letter that I also needed his love stating that if he really doesn’t want me as part of his life, then he could just support me financially until I finished college because education is really important to me. A few days after, I got a reply from my father saying that he is willing to finance me. I was happy at that moment. It continued. Now, in my sophomore year in college, he still pays my school bills, provides me sumptuous food, and occasionally, I still do get my allowance. Even if I could feel his care already; there is this feeling of thirteen years of incompleteness inside me. I still want to experience traveling with my father, to go to movies with mom and him. I’m not asking them to be back together but at least we have this get together. I know it sounds too ambitious; yet, I still want more. I want to get more out of his love. Is it too much to ask?

It’s really difficult growing up without a father, so to those sons and daughters who think that a father is just a provider in this world, think twice. You just don’t know how lucky you are to have him.

LOVE and LIFE

6/17/2007 12:22:00 AM

hi people..i'm still awake..it's 2 30 in the morning--or shall i say dawn..heheh..i was exhausted when i arrived at home gikan klase...i dozed off gud when i was watching tv...then when i woke up it was already 11 PM...i ate my dinner 11 o'clock na in the evening...then nag online ko...then naputol akong connection sa internet...then cge ko try sud for one hour..then karon ra tawon ko naka internet balik...then nawala na akong ka chat...edcel!! asa naman ka...hahahha...nag blog na lang ko wa na ko lingaw...: )..

hay..i can't sleep man sad gud...daghan kaau sud akong huna2..like...schooling..i'm a lil' bit nervous kung unsa ma hitabo nako ron second year nako..especially kay calculus na amung math!! and math is my fave subject biya--NOT!!!!...i'm excited na sad this monday kay we will be wearing our uniforms na....kay gikapoy nako cge ug civilian....it's so tiring na mag cge ka think unsa nasad imo isuot the next day...then here's this guy i always think of....thinking..what his intentions are...if he's into me or not...then thinking nasad maybe he's not yet the right guy...then i always say this to myself.."hoi jen!!! ayaw pa da sa imo gibati!!!"....i think being single runs through the blood...hahahha....all the gurls in my family are single...my mom is a single mom...i have an aunt (i only have one aunt..sister sa akong mom..) who is also single...and me...super single...lol...bitaw oi..serious ta beh...so duha na na akong naa sa akong mind...third is...akong pag uli everyday...kapoy kaau...mag two rides ko...kas kau plete noh!!...mahirap na ang buhay ngayon...heheh...

hahay...it's 3 o'clock na in the morning...out nalang ko oi..hehe...

thanks for reading!!...

6/16/2007 02:36:00 AM

first day of class karon...ok lang...hehehe...grabe ra kaayo akong imagination ganiha...kulba an jd ko...pag kaon gud nako ganiha kay murag mu balik gawas ang pagkaon sa akong baba...heheh..pero pag adto nako school and went to my room...murag ok raman..lahi nalang ang atmosphere kay most of the people dili nako kaila...heheh...pero akong favorite na class ganiha kay ang BA 101 jd...business administration na siya...mga lingaw kaayo akong mga classmate na lalaki na bogoy...heheh...mga bogoy na buotan...heheh..pero kapoy kaayo pag abot sa amung balay...sakit kaayo akong bagtak..hehhe...ni adto man ko ayala then balik ko school pag 5:30 kay naa man ko class...good gurl biya ko..heheh....mao ra na siya nahitabo sa akong day..heheh...i will always look forward na sa akong subject na BA...hehehe...i hope dili na toh ma change amu seat plan kay lingaw kau akong mga kaduol na seatmates..hehe..

thanks for reading..
till here..
gots to gos!!

6/14/2007 11:25:00 PM

this is one of my problems man jd...i have this maldita look especially when i'm not smiling...even if normal lang nako na face...i always have this maldita face...daghan man jd nag ingon nako nga suplasda ko...as the saying goes.."don't judge the book by it's cover"...it's the same ra sad sa mga taw...well...normal raman jd ni akong face nga maldita...there are times na akong tuyo on..heheh...especially if maka sugat ko ug mga lalaki nga kadudahan ug mga nawong...and sometimes..i always have this mind set na..basin ilaha ko api-apihon or ilaha ko kataw an...that's the time nga i put this maldita face of mine...one thing sad..basta tutukan gani ko..lain man gud akong huna2..murag paranoid gani..sometimes akong huna2 nanghinaway ni nako tawhana...mao na mag minaldita ko ug nawong...it's like akong maldita na face kay ako ganing defense mechanism...i grew without a father man gud and i don't have siblings pa jd..so mao na..feeling nako i have to protect myself...or else api apihon jd ka...

mga miga ug migo nko na nakabasa ani..i just hope mu usab na inyong panan aw nako..especially if mahadlok mo mutagad nako kay basin dili tamo tagdon...kay suplada lagi jd kuno ko ug nawong...please storya lang mu if you feel like talkin' to me...and i will answer you with sincerity...haha ni ryhme..ako man sad gud usahay..mauwaw man sad gud ko mutagad..mahadlok sad ko nga di ko ninyo tagdon...heehe...please get to know me better lang...heeh...angel man ko..hahahah...di man ko devil...hahaha..bitaw oi...get to know me better lang and anha namo judge if yur first impressions nako would last...ok..hehe...

thanks for reading...
till here...
cheers!!

6/14/2007 11:18:00 PM

shyet oi...wa nako na save ang first nako gi himo...
last na nako na driving lessons gabie...5-7 akong sked...hahay..na stop na sad ang awto...lahi nasad ang instructor gabie..mao na cge stop ang car..kay lahi man sila ug pama agi...ok raman akong last session...medyo mag lisod lang ko klaro sa dan kay ngit2!!..then tugnaw pa jd kaayo ang aircon mag kuha akong mata sa ka bugnaw...niya ga uwan pa jd to nga day...mas ganahan ko sa kaong fourth session..mas smooth akong padagan...hahay...last nato nako na session...mingawon ko drive2..hehe...wala pako sakyanan!..mag huwat pa ko hatagan or kung hatagan bah ko sa akong erpats..heheh...mao na toh siya...the end sa akong driving lessons..hehee...mayta di ko makalimot..heheh...
share lang ni nako..after driving..didto mi grocery...plano ko palit ug pringles..nangita ko cheese na flavor niya kay naa man sa pinaka taas niya di man ko maka abot!!..naka kita ko pareha2 sa pringles..spuds ang ngan..jack n' jill na product..ahak pag tilaw nako pareha ra lami sa piattos!!...yati jd oi! duha pa jd akong gi palit...di nako mu palit ato balik!!...
till here!
thanks for reading...
cheers!!

6/14/2007 11:13:00 PM

I’ll be talkin’ about sa akong third and fourth session sa akong driving lessons…cge..start tah sa third…uhmm…when I saw the instructor (lahi naman sad this time..), I thought ‘cute’..pero mura malditohon gani…makalagot maka dah ug instruct..di pa jd maklaro ang sinulti an…na bag ohan sad ko sa sakyanan nga gigamit kay pag first ug second practice nako kay Nissan man to..then pag third ug fourth kay mazda na…dili kaayo nindot akong third session pero madah raman sad..hehe…then ni kuyog naman sad akong mama…naa na sad ni iyang pag ka know it all nga murag maayo na kaayo mu drive..pero ignore nalang nako kay mag pakusog ko ug pa dagan mabannga niya mi (as I’ve said..nindot kayo ang feeling basta mag pa kusog ka ug dagan labi na naglagot ka..). stop na tah sa third session…

Ganiha, just had my fourth session…medyo mas ok na karon murag na anad nako sa sakyanan (Mazda man gihapon…kalagot lang kay ang naka sked jd unta kay Honda Civic na car..ay..kay gusto man kaayo ni siya sa Mazda iyang gi ilisan ug Mazda..mas nindot unta tong Honda kay mura ra mag lutaw ang dagan..)…na anad nasad ko sa instructor..then mejo mas smooth na akong dagan ganiha compare sa mga past sessions nako…sa mga beginners daw mga 30 pa daw ang speed jd…pero ganiha nag 40 man ko kapin..hehehe..nice kaayo feeling mag pa kusog ugdagan..heheh…makalagot jd ning overtakan tah noh?..hehe…ahhh mag lumba2 sad ko gamay pero dili lang kaayo kay mamatay niya ko sayo…heheh…ganiha akong gi practice kay ang pag parking…lisod siya pag una pero ok raman…kalimtanon man gud ko mao na mag sige pasad ko pangutana…hehe…so mao na siya ang nahitabo ganiha..heheh…I hope ugma dili na mu stop ang car while mag drive ko…kanang madngan gani ug tunob ang gas bah nah ug clutch…or ambot..basta kanang mu kalit ug stop ang car…

Till here!

Thanks for reading..

Cheer y’alls gots to gos!

6/14/2007 11:08:00 PM

…someone…I just hate it…why I hate it?! Dali ra kaayo ko maganahan ug usa ka guy …DAMMIT! I’m typing this one because I might go crazy if I don’t express this feeling…there is no one I can talk to here…you meet this guy and you thought the feeling was mutual…then you spend most of your time like you tire yourself just to be “with him” (don’t ask why I’m quoting that part..)…some guys are really unpredictable..most of them are…I just hate it when they send inconsistent signs you know…oh well…maybe they are just like that..you know…basin just to test the girl…and you spend all night/all day wondering if he likes you or just playin’ the big f**king game…I’ve been rejected (it doesn’t mean that I courted some guy or something…what I meant was first I liked this guy and shows some interest nako and it doesn’t turn out well in the end…got it??!!) by love for what…two times…and I rejected it once just to be with someone whom I thought was f**king serious and turns out that he was just fooling me…that guy was a shitbrick!!…and I don’t want to see his face --- well..i want to but you know..to punch him in the face ….let’s not talk about this shitbrick…if I get hurt THIS TIME…I don’t know…I-just-don’t-know…I hope dili lang jd…

6/14/2007 11:06:00 PM

Kung gahapon murag wala ko ganahi..ganiha murag ok lang…pag first murag nawad an ko ug salig sa akong kaugalingon…pero pag human nako practice..naa man lain student driver ning puli nako…hahaha…mas arang2 pa twon ko niya…hehehe…I felt good about myself…dili pa diay ko worst…heheh….nakatawa jd ko sa among instructor kay katong student driver na after nako kay kusog kaayo maka tunob sa brake..as in kanang murag ma umod naka hapit bah…ana dayon ang among instructor..”ah! mura man ug naay mu labang permi…”…heheh…well I found it funny…heheh…driving lessons awhile ago turned ok…hey! I ka second pa gani toh nakong practice..heheh..basin mga inig fourth pasutoy nako ug dagan…heheh…one thing about driving…kung maglagot ka then pakusog ka dagan…damn! It feels really good…mao nang daghan kau na disgrasya…and about ato akong instructor na o a…he does it with other student drivers pud diay…so ok nalang…bisag ma irita gihapon ko…hehehe….my next schedule is tomorrow..i think five to seven PM akong sked tomorrow…

Till here…

Thanks for reading…

Cheer y’alls gots to gos!!

6/14/2007 11:05:00 PM

just had my first driving lesson....KAPOY!

dili lalim ning mag drive...perting kapoya...pag first ato..ok ra kay na ka suway naman sad ko practice ug drive with my uncle..pag kadugayan murag libog naman...pag first sad ok ra unta ang instructor..pag kadugayan murag ning o a man mao na murag na irita sad ko gamay...pero sagda an nalagn nako kay but an man sad tawhana...naa sad ning akong mama (ni kuyog man siya..ga sakay sakay pud siya sa awto)..mura sad ug korek kay kung maka buyag mura sad kahibaw namu drive nga katong sauna naka boto man gani ug ligid sa akong uncle..maka irita lang bah...pero kapoy jd kaayo mag drive..perti pa jd inita..ang ka init mu penetrate jd sa awto...the aircon wasn't enough..murag pama ulan jd ni kaong tiil ugma...and shit! mag practice nasad ugma...thrilled pa kaayo ko ganiha kay mka drive na lagi ko sa highway pero after sad ganiha...wa nako ganahi..ganahan nako mu undang...
till here!
mao rana ang highlight sa akong day karon..hahaha..
cheer y'alls gots to go!

6/14/2007 11:04:00 PM

Ang kinabuhi sa usa ka ACCOUNTANCY STUDENT...

....kay dili sayon... Pressure kaayo kay kailangan every exam, kahibaw jd ka, kabaw jd ka analyze, kabaw jd ka unsa na imo gi buhat. You also must get a grade which is equivalent to 2.0. It's like 2.0 is our passing grade. I remembered our first exam last semester. All of us were very nervous. I felt like I was going to be executed. Thankfully, I had a very good result with that exam. In my opinion, in our course it's like you have to have a perfect computation, kung pwede gani perfect nalang ka nga taw or else ma zero jd ka sa exam niya mahagbong ka. Di jd pwede mag easy2 kung naay test. Kung pwede gani one week before the test mag tuon na. Last semester was okay but now....it's like hell. I don't know if I can still proceed to 2nd yr. Kung dili, ah mag M.A nalang ko. M.A is Management Accounting. M.A is one of the fall back courses of Accountancy.

Amu teacher is very good. She teaches us solutions that are easy to understand not like other teachers na daghan kaayo ug libog. Makat-on jd ka niya kay gi train jd mi niya maayo ug solve ug perting daghanang problems. Sometimes her assignments were like pang vacation nga assignments tungod sa kadaghan. Pero on the brighter side through her assignments, we can practice our analysis, it's very important sa Accounting.

Karon, nag problema jd ko sa Accounting nako na subject kay i got low scores in my exams. I just hope na maka pasar in tawon ko karon an sem sa accounting. I really don't want to disappoint my mother. My mother did not chose the course for me pero it's so hard to look her disappointed because the tuition fees are like hell sa ka mahal. I'm trying to be optimistic about this, believe me it's effective.

cheer y'all!!

NOTE: Written..January 12, 2007...i transfered all my blog posts here sa blogger...

6/14/2007 10:40:00 PM